Ship's Blog: December, 2009

The new year is upon us and...OMIGOD! I'm writing in my blog! I'm actually posting something! Exactly how many months has it been?

Okay, let's not count.

I will be honest: 2009 was not a great year for me. I really struggled through many months of it because, well, post-traumatic stress disorder sucks. The nightmares, insomnia, anxiety attacks, and free-floating fear is draining. Getting control of the symptoms was very tricky and required a lot of experimentation over many months. It was hard for me to believe that anyone wanted to hear what was going on with me during that time and so I avoided my blog. Because even that made me anxious. And after a while, when I felt better enough to write, I found that I didn't know what to say.

Have you ever had that happened? For whatever reason, you fall out of touch with someone and you want to reconnect, only, you can't figure out how to start the conversation again. How do you explain how you weren't in touch? Maybe they are annoyed with you and don't want to hear from you. Is it naive to just want to pick up where you left off, or do you owe an apology?  Read more »